I see you health care worker
Robed head to toes, masks leaving lines across your nose
Wanting to extend compassion but so drained
From death and loss and grief and pain
The burden of others you bear, your care
The last human touch on this side of eternity
The sacred moments of the in-between
Scourged by the futility and preventability
How long, O God, how long?
I see you parent of littles
Stepped out of the corporate rat race
To face a new kind of trap, with no map
Perils of parenthood more intense, makes no sense
Each decision higher stakes, no mistakes
All while being so alone, at home
Needing a friend, worth the risk in the end?
Searching for a script that has yet to be written
How long, O God, how long?
I see you pastor
Preached to love your neighbor for years
Now you fear the chance came, the lesson waned
Disheartened by souls adrift, a community untethered
Questioning whether people can come together
A faith divided, with little hope provided
False idols in power, hate ringing louder
Preaching a faith that is slipping through your fingers
How long, O God, how long?
I see you teacher
Witnessing the weariness in the eyes of your class
Tenderly you ask, to tend the pain, trust to gain
Some say they are behind, them you remind
Tender hearts must be nourished, so the mind can flourish
To feel safe again, to feel whole again, to feel joy again
There’s simply no choice, but be their voice
To form cocoons of care, holding tight as you dare
How long, O God, how long?
I see you teenager
Supposed to be your time to shine
Things you looked forward to, gone from view
If you could just rewind to remind of a normal time
Familiar yet foreign, fresh yet forgotten
Hopes for the future dim behind a curtain, so uncertain
Left behind–out of sight, out of mind
Should be thriving but are barely surviving
How long, O God, how long?
I see you family of the immunocompromised
Wondering will you be the one
To cause despair, months of care, undone
Questioning if this decision will bring division
Torn between a life to live and a life to protect
Scales tipping between risks and reward
Weary of the worry, expired by the energy required
To navigate and contemplate what once was uncomplicated
How long, O God, how long?
I see you beloved
Grocery store worker and French fry cooker
Librarian and veterinarian and octogenarian
Small business owner and big bank loaner
Scientists no one listens to, airline pilots who once flew
Those burdened by student debts, all the homeless vets
Soon-to-be brides, families of those who’ve died
Ones making decisions, ones uniting divisions
How long, O God, how long?
I see YOU
Meager light from a candle at the end of its wick
A flickering flame expiring quick
If we hold each one up, will our lights connect?
Can we cast out the vast darkness? Each other protect?
Correct the void that separates us?
Reject dismay, despair, disarray, desolation?
A restoration of the hope of creation?
How long, O God, how long?
Sarah Blackwell is a contributing writer at Word&Way and a 2020 graduate of the Gardner-Webb School of Divinity. She is a former deacon and volunteers with youth and young adults at Providence Baptist Church in Charlotte, North Carolina. She did not get a pandemic pet, but she did ask for and receive a new bird feeder for her pandemic birthday. Follow her writings at proximitytolove.org.