'I Feel Extraordinarily Conflicted About It': Varghese's St. John Divine Installation Cut Short - Word&Way

‘I Feel Extraordinarily Conflicted About It’: Varghese’s St. John Divine Installation Cut Short

NEW YORK (RNS) — Nearly 700 people packed the Cathedral Church of Saint John the Divine on Manhattan’s Upper West Side on Saturday (Sept. 27) to witness the installation of the Rev. Winnie Varghese, the first queer woman of color named dean of the world’s largest Episcopal Gothic cathedral.

Bishop Matthew Heyd, left, leads the installation ceremony of the Rev. Winnie Varghese, right, as the new dean of the Cathedral of St. John the Divine, Saturday, Sept. 27, 2025, on Manhattan’s Upper West Side in New York. (Photo by Maike Shulz)

The ceremony, planned for an hour and a half, made clear Varghese’s ambition: to promote Christian unity, to emphasize interfaith relationships, and to commit to the numerous reconstruction projects the cathedral demands. The service blended tradition and interfaith witness, with readings from the Torah, Quran, a Hindu saint, and the Book of Revelation. Music ranged from a Sufi melody to a traditional spiritual, alongside a three-piece Indian band — a nod to Varghese’s Indian heritage and a tribute to her family in the front row.

Around noon, however, Varghese’s father fainted. Varghese said she stepped down from her seat at the altar as people began to swarm around him, seeing tears in her brother’s eyes and panic in her mother’s.

“I didn’t know what to do, but I was looking at him, he was out, and he wasn’t waking up,” Varghese told RNS on Monday.

After speaking with the Rt. Rev. Matthew Heyd, bishop of the Episcopal Diocese of New York, who led the audience in prayer shortly after the interruption, Varghese said she decided to stand firm and take care of her family.

Clergy process in for the installation service of the Rev. Winnie Varghese as the new dean of the Cathedral of St. John the Divine, Saturday, Sept. 27, 2025, on Manhattan’s Upper West Side in New York. (Photo by Maike Shulz)

“I thought, I’m here with literally 700 people I love, who love me and love this cathedral,” Varghese said. “I know I have a remarkable bishop and canons, and leadership — everybody organizing this service. I can just be my father’s daughter because these people, they will know what to do.”

As Varghese quickly left the cathedral, her father was taken on a stretcher to a nearby hospital. Soloist Rachel Kurtz led the congregation in singing “Amazing Grace” as they exited.

Later Saturday evening, Varghese posted a photo on Instagram with her father and a caption that begins: “Daddy is feeling much better.” He remained in the hospital as of Monday.

“I wouldn’t have done it differently,” Varghese recalled of deciding to leave the ceremony. “I feel extraordinarily conflicted about it, and I think I will forever.”

While planning the installation ceremony, Varghese said she read the cathedral’s founding documents from 1892.

The Rev. Steven Lee, vicar of the cathedral, said he thought the ceremony represented a new chapter for the cathedral, while simultaneously embodying its original mission.

“The range of musical genres, the range of readings, the interfaith voices — it really hearkened back to the first generation that built this cathedral,” Lee said. “It said, ‘We want this to be a cathedral for all of New York City, not only for a few Episcopalians who live on the Upper West Side.’”

Although Varghese has only been dean since July, Lee said she has already pushed the cathedral to think bigger about its worship. “One way she’s helped us to do that is to think about, what would the service be like if we had 100 more children, more people?” Lee said. “Suddenly, we have to ask different questions.”

Video screens were added so worshippers can see the preacher more clearly, and the space was rearranged to accommodate larger crowds for Sunday services. Even in smaller details, from polished furniture to a warm welcome from security, Lee said the congregation is “walking taller” under Varghese’s leadership.